wow, so people actually read the crap I write...Interesting. So what to say today, besides that I'm tired and cold and just plain wore out in general.
It snowed today, not enough to stick, but enough to make me sad. I hate snow and cold but here I am living in Indiana. People always wonder why I don't move, and I'm like well then I'd just complain that I'm too hot. My favorite thing to do in this weather is make a giant pot of soup. I love to get creative and put different things in my soup each time. Then while thats cooking I'll sit in my comfy chair with my cats on my lap and read. Of course I have a giant cup of hot cocoa to complete the comfy vibe. Now I'm just dreaming of those things while I continue to stare at my computer screen and yawn. I don't think I'll be awake much longer tonight. My least favorite channel to watch is the weather channel because it really freaks me out. I swear I'm more afraid of the weather channel than I am of any horror movie known to man. What's your favorite thing to do when it starts snowing? Ok so we all have dreams....My question is what is yours and how do you plan to acheive it?
I think I've decided my dream job would be a promotion specialist. I think things to help me attain this goal are 1)Got my associates degree, learned alot about marketing, and got pretty good at case studies. 2)Doing my youtube thing and working on new techniques and ideas often. 3)Working on getting out there in the community. 4)Taking advice when it's given 5)think out side the box 6)NEVER GIVING UP! I got inspired today Trust me I didn't expect it, I went to a memorial that jumpstarted my mind. It was for a great man who died last week in a car accident. Today would have been his birthday and I knew it would be a sad moment. Then people got up and they talked about him. They told us who he was for real, he was stubborn, but they loved him. What he did was usually for the best. They talked about how he was given so many second chances and how most of them met him at parties (that he was the life of) and formed long lasting friendships. I watched in the pictures at how he grew up doing all kinds of jobs and just working to find himself. They said he was the one with the crazy dreams that noone understood. That's when I started to feel so close to the situation. It's so often in life that I'm throwing all these crazy things around, but I don't think they're crazy. I think they're genious and that if I only had the money we could change the world. Maybe someday I will. For now I think I will start taking steps everyday until I reach that goal. I feel sick that someone had to die. The thing is as I heard those stories I realized he will never die. That man changed so many people's lives! Literally the church (which was large) was so packed that I had to stand, and I got there on time. Well guys that's my piece of mind for today. What do you want to do with your life? Who has inspired you? Please tell me about it! Sometimes I just go on a rant in my head and I have to write it down. This is one of those times. When I was younger I remember feeling ugly. I know it’s a terrible way to feel but what can I say I was 13 and my self esteem was next to nothing. I spent countless nights feeling like if I could lose weight I would be so much prettier, but I gave up on everything else. Kids made fun of me too and it could get relentless. I didn’t really talk about that with my parents much You know they’d get all “I’m going down there to have a talk with…” and no one wants that.
Mom’s try to help, but it doesn’t always workout. Sometimes they say the things they’re supposed to say , when you really need them to be brutally honest. Honestly yes, I needed to lose weight but that wasn’t the only issue. I needed confidence, I needed to blow dry my hair once in a while, and STOP wearing clothes 2 sizes to big for me! Especially that last one, because I was just gaining all kinds of weight and not even noticing. Also it’s not all that flattering. I remember when I first started to build enough confidence to talk to others. It seemed like if I was being crazy I could talk to anyone. The only thing was I left people annoyed as well. Hope I don’t still do that too much. I think I’ve learned to tone it down, a little anyway. Sorry about the rant but I had to let it out of my mind. I guess this is a blog? I don’t read them oddly enough. |
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