that cooks up
gourmet meals
I'm a stand in mom
long before
the training wheels
I'm the laughing stock
that's always
quick to joke
the one who thought
I'd never give up
cigarette smoke
the girl who acts
like she's
one of the guys
who sometimes hurts feelings
'cus she
never tells lies
the zombie loving
weirdo
all covered in blood
not afraid to get dirty
or play
in the mud
admits all her
short comings
but never defeat
not afraid to admit
that she sure
likes to eat
and dances around
if the
music is bumpin
she recently works out
to get
the blood pumping
always loves to
rock out
and mosh with the best
sings karaoke, just about
any song
you'd suggest
makes lots of friends
and tries
to be true
loves to dress up
and act
like a fool
doesn't watch sports
it's so boring
to my mind
I'd rather see a
comedy and
laugh all the time
I'm addicted to movies
I've seen
almost all of them
then I erase them from my mind
so it feels
like the first time again
I sing to commercials
it's just something
I've always done
my friends joke but
I'm good natured
when they're picking fun
I put on girly music
to pick me up
when I'm feeling low
I can throw a mean punch
you don't
even wan't to know
i like to rise up
to a challenge
never underestimate
if you doubt me I will
show you
how wrong you are everyday
I like to stay positive, as often
as I can
that's the way it's got to be
I've been depressed, I've been
a mess
and I'm not going back you see
I'm the girl who laughs
a silly laugh
so then you're laughing too
an awesome sales person
cus the customers know
my aim is always true
I hate religious, political,
or racist
jokes or debates
I don't like when skinny girls
think they
need to lose weight
I dislike rap songs that talk about
money, cars
and unclassy ladies
and guys who don't take care
of their kids
but steadily having babies
I love soaking up the sun
but I hate
to waste my time
I really enjoy poetry
and I've
always loved to write
I make silly rap songs
and I
talk about poo
I'm not a normal girl
and normal
just won't do
something about editing videos
is soothing
to my mind
I wish it was my job
and I could
do it all the time
being in a crowd
is when I'm
completely happiest
and sometimes i block my mind
from feeling
anything tragic
I really can't deal with death
so suprisingly
I just don't
and I know this sounds strange
but I do
believe in ghosts
and I believe in God
although I'm not
the perfect Christian
I know that even the bad things
help me
stay in my position
I dream that there is greatness
that I
one day will achieve
I also dream a lot
about
flesh eating zombies
I make up random words
and get them
into circulation
but hate when they are really dumb
and people
remember me for them
I cry watching the notebook,
lion king,
and that Mandy Moore flick
I never like to call off work
even if
I'm super sick
I talk too much
I stress
a lot but it always works out
because eventually once I voice it
I can
try to sort it out
I'll tell my whole story to anyone
who cares
or pretends to pay attention
cus when day when I'm famous and have
my own show
maybe they will remember and listen
I say the same quotes over and over
in my head
it becomes my mantra
that's the way I get through life
when it
becomes a handful
I hate to clean, I truly do
but I'll do it
if it needs done
but one day when I'm super rich
I'm definitely
paying someone
I love to sleep when it rains
my most
relaxing of times
It's pretty much the only time
I don't dream
and can actually free my mind
Something about trees
has always been
completely enthralling to me
I like to capture them in
many ways
like painting and photography
I think I'm smart about some things
but in some
I feel so dumb
and though I love gardens I'll never
grow one
cus I don't have a green thumb
I sing in the shower
made up songs
like I'm in a contest
I'm always wearing multiple layers
trying to
hide my chest
I feel awkward when I'm trying
for cute
not sure if it's a success
but I look in the mirror and I have
to be happy
if I feel I look my best
I'm pretty confident when
I'm crazy
but unsure of my serious self
because if you laugh at
me then
I will feel like I have failed
I've dealt with a lot in my life
some truly
could not overcome
but somehow I keep on truckin
and I'm glad
that I've become so strong
I love doing things outdoors
but it's been
a long time since I have
can't believe that I gained
so much weight
that thought always makes me so mad
and sometimes it sucks
cus I
never was loved by my dad
but at least another stepped up
and for that
I could never feel bad
and stupid people in life
will push
you down, stomp on your face
but we have to remember
that they
are going through their own selfish things
and recently someone said after
a relationship ends
we blame ourself
and subconsciously
we begin
to become someone else
maybe because we're afraid
that we
just weren't good enough
but maybe the mistake was
with the other
the one that gave you up
and that made me think
about myself
and who I really am
and somewhere deep inside
I vowed
I'll never change for a man
I am amazing, flaws and all
a force
to be reckoned with
and one day I'll find a love
that's true
though I'm not rushing it
for now I'll continue living
each day
remembering me
cus now that I'm actually alone
the possibilities
are endless as the sea