No times for personal pity parties...i've got some work to do.
It seems the suffering in life always comes before the "big break" I can only hope thats true. I'm so insanely tired of being poor and stressing about bills. I'd probably have an easier time losing weight if I would stop sitting here feeling sorry for myself.
No times for personal pity parties...i've got some work to do.
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That new Under Armour commercial is genius. It's just a girl working out different ways over different days and then the phrase "no matter what sweat everyday, I will" goes on the screen throughout the clips. It really always makes me want to workout. Sweating everyday seems like a good idea. Yesterday I ate alot. I tend to do that on the weekends. It was Cissy's b-day and I had a brownie there. Before that I ate a burrito from Rio's, a granola bar, a slice of peanut butter cinnamon toast, and 2 frozen gogurts. I did go on the peace walk yesterday though. That was a nice little walk in the rain. It was nice to see that many people standing for the city saying they want to see the violence stopped. I really hope things can get better around here. I do want this city to be a good place for future generations to grow up. They had these mini granola bars at the store and they are only 60 calories a piece. Yes, sometimes I eat a few and then feel guilty, the thing is they are tiny and eating 2 is like one normal granola bar. This way I do think I eat less of them. It helps when I get a sweet tooth, to eat a granola bar rather then a pastry or something. I did workout but then I pulled something in the back of my leg. It was not a fun kind of pain so I did some stretches and then tried to relax it. After my shower it should be feeling fine again. I think it's getting closer to that time of the month. I feel like every time that happens I get way more food cravings. Today I was craving spaghetti but I know that all those barbs and ground beef weren't the best idea. Instead I opted to make a vegetarian dish. I chopped and diced some delicious veggies (carrots, mushrooms, green pepper, tomato, onion) then I wrapped them in cabbage and baked them in spaghetti sauce. It was really good and suprisingly filling. When I got a sweet toothI toasted 2 slices of wheat bread then I spread crunchy pb on them and had a glass of chocolate milk. I figure sometimes I'm gonna break the rules but I should try to make it as tame as possible. Today I switched from the 3pd weights to the 5 pd weights. I definately feel the burn and break a sweat much faster. I also tried o ut this crunch machine the neighbor gave me. It's crazy how holding your hands up while doing the crunches makes it seem more strenuous. I think my favorite part about working out is that great sense of euphoria after it's all over. I sweat like crazy and released all those endophins and now I can just sit here and enjoy the natural high. This weekend was hard for me, and I broke some diet rules, (go figure). It seems the more money I have the worse I am. I just want to go out to eat, and then I make terrible choices. Saturday- 1 burrito salad ( no tortilla) strawberry milkshake stir fry pita's Sunday- fried cauliflower with ranch stir fry pita's p.b. sandwich I did 2 miles today. This time I did more movement with my arms. I'm sure to people driving by I looked crazy. I don't care though because it is pretty true. lol. Happieness. I remember when me and my ex would fight and I'd just think to myself "I wish I could just be happy". That got me thinking what would help with that, How can I get happier? I guess I'd need....financial stability, lose weight and feel healthier, great friends ( I have some really good ones, but I could use more), a career, ....... Oh who know's. Would any of that REALLY make me happy? All I know is right now I can barely pay my bills and that sucks. Don't worry though eventually I will figure it out. I am pretty good at being independent. Well this is a few hours later and I'm sorry I was venting so much. Sometimes I get that way. I'm gonna dance around and then get ready for work. I'm gonna dress like my version of a pirate today lol. We are allowed to dress up for halloween so I change my costume every weekend. Whoops, I misplaced this notebook so I stopped writing for a few weeks. I have been working out still though. I find myself craving for healthier foods when I shop now. The problem is I'm broke so I don't have as many options. Today is the first day I'm really eating canned food (which I'm sure isn't as good for me) but it's all I have. I had one chicken breast, 2 can's of chili beans, 1 can of kidney beans, 1 can of diced tomatoes, a can of corn, and a half a pint of mushrooms. I'm making chicken chili I guess. I do have spices to make it extra delicious so it should be okay. I did my measurements yesterday they were- waist- 55 inches Thigh- 26 inches Arm 15 1/2 inches I don't have my computer to see the difference from last month though, and that kinda sucks. I've taken a lot of pictures lately. Some are of what I've been eating when I've been working out, or just me being me. I'm hoping eventually these will be something to look at and be proud of. I guess it's the sad little things that I notice most. Now I can get out of my chair without a 1,2,3, hoist myself up moment. It's embarassing to remember when I did that. I also can crouch down and bend over better withch makes being at work so much easier. My favorite thing to do lately is put on Ne-Yo's Let me love you (until you learn to love yourself) and do a mixture of random dancing. I usually like to do it with 3 pound weights and then go back and do it again with out the weights. The second time is always more fluid and fun since the weights aren't weighing m e down. The weights really do help me to stretch and bend farther though. I was in a funk yesterday so I didn't workout. I hope I don't get like that again. Today I did 2 miles at the cemetary and then 6 minutes of dance cardio. I should try and do something more before bed though. Well I'll try to get back into writing again. sorry for the funk. Today I felt a sense of pride while walkingt through the grocery store. It was great just filling my cart with healthy food. Don't get me wrong it was difficult but I resisted the temptation. Yesterday I went to McDonalds but I only got the grilled chicken snack wrap. I think I can safetly say I am trying to change to a healthier lifestyle. I did break the rules and eat some combo's though. :( They are high in sodium and calories. That's why I went to the store today. When there's no food in my house I tend to want to pick up something quick and easy. That usually means fattening junk food. So far this is the best yogurt I've tasted.I'm so tired, I don't really feel like writing. I should though. I ate today- 1 cup coffee 2 bananas ( 1 with peanut butter) 2 very small boneless skinless chicken breast veggies with thin sliced steak ( made some saved over half for the following day) 1 yogurt I did 2 miles at the cemetary today. I kept alternating between jogging and walking. When I watched Extreme Weightloss they explained how that helps you lose more weight than consistantly walking or jogging. I slapped a few high fives and exchanged some fun "whoo whoo keep it going" phrases to strangers. That's always my favorite thing to do. I will try and do some crunches before I fall out. Good night! 13 days till measurements. So yesterday was Jake's birthday and lets just say I ate much, much more than I should have. I'm not going to break it down and stress though. I'm just going to move past it. I did atleast start the day off right and get my exercise. Today also started the first day I'm abstaining from Facebook. This is actually hard for me, but I'm hoping it will produce great results. I'd like to come back at the end of September with a dramatic loss in inches. This morning I decided a dance workout was in order, so I went on Demand first. I did a belly dancing vid for 22 minutes and then learned four different workout vids by Kendra Kemberly. I really liked her style. Some of the moves were hard but the way she broke it down helped me to get it. I did about 2 hours of dancing videos and then some freestyle dancing. Afterwards I took a gross sweaty picture for proof. One day it will be something to remember my hard work. Maybe I can blow it up and hang it on the fridge. haha. This journal is just one of those things I need to have. If I do lose the weight maybe I can post it in a blog. Why am I saying if, I know KNOW I have to lose it. I'm sweating like crazy right now so I think I'll end it here. If your going on this journey with me, GOODLUCK! I'll see ya on the skinny side! 14 days till measurements! I hope I'll see a change :) |
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